Wednesday, October 18, 2006

mind blank

Just 10 more days, 10 more days and I'll be with my family then. Sudeep bhaiya ki shaadi hai, can't believe it. Woh itne bade ho gaye hai, unki shaadi ho rahi hai. Bhabhi, wonder if I should call her that cause she is the same age as me, is very sweet, pretty and just like bhaiya, mast. And they both are crazy in love with each other. Things like these kinda restore my belief in aranged marriages.
10 more days to go for something else also. My birthday ..:D I know I'll feel real sad and depressed that day, cause I'll realize that I have become so old :(, but still I wait for the day.
uhm so how was my day today ? Can say good and nice in some ways and otherwise in other ways.
The most difficult thing to do in life is to accept people around you in the way they are. Even if we understand this fact we still cannot accept it. No one can do it 100%. We at some point or other want people to change their behaviour/reaction towards certain (or more) things. And I, by some stroke of luck, am blessed with having majority of such people arround me.
BTW did I mention I live next to the beach, cool isn't it ..??? yeah it is. The crowd on weekdays is kinda okiez, so one can even stay out alone on the beach till late. And there is no other better way to gather your thoughts and to do some soul searching than strolling on the beach. And you can never get bored there, with so many people around you.
Abrupt ending......

Sunday, October 15, 2006

uh !!

Late in the night.....and what am I doing trying to revive my long lost blog..??? yeah that's how bored I am. Don't feel like sleeping....Seeta left for States last night...will be gone for 1 month..not a very long time...but it's gonna be one helva of a month. They say change is the only constant thing in life. Very true. Never in my life have I believed it as much as I do now. Today realized that quite possible that today just might be the last time.....for so many things. Don't know actually where the day went....but it was and packing again..hehehehe...but the day is now over....Next weekend is Diwali..gonna be here in this ravan raj ( as someone called it). was feelin really bad about it but then thought where else can I go. The only place which I considered home is not home anymore. My parents have shifted to Bhopal from Jhansi. Somehow the fact hasn't sunk in yet. Suddenly everything around me is home....It was Ramya's last day on wednesday. Never realized how much I'll miss her. Miss having that someone sitting on my left who I can just turn and crib and bug...who I can tease and take case...who'll tease me and take my case..True enough that you don't actually realize how much you like a person/thing till the time it not there with yo nay more....when it's with you, you crib about it and then you miss it....Hmmm....and next month Chitra'll leave too....then it'll be just me and Vidya in this ('beautiful') world....hoping not for a long time. Wow and I have managed to summarize a lot in this post........not bad....

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Random Thoughts

Another weekend over, and what did I do, nothing worthwhile. That is if you don't count thinking, can anyone get bored of thinking, don't think so. Thought about all my 6 years here in Chennai. Of all the people I have met here, all the people I have lost here. All what has happend over these years. All the masti/freaking out I have done here. All the fun I've had here. The friends I found, the love I lost more than once. hmmm Chennai has given me so much but taken away even what I had. Don't remember anytime when I haven't cribbed about Chennai. But whatever said and done I'll miss it when I leave. Miss the freedom, independence I have here. Can I dare to stay out late in the night somewhere else ? Can I dare to go for a night show ? Can I dare to walk in those lonely streets alone late. ? Can I dare to go alone anywhere ? Can I dare to live alone ? Have been pretty daring here I must say. hehe. Can't believe have been here for 6 years now, almost like a second home now. Boy Oh Boy Oh Boy !! But trust me feels much longer. seems like have been here for ages. Have formed a comfort zone here. Shiver to think that I would soon have to leave it here to enter into the danger zone. Would have to start again, make new friends, get used to the new surroundings, get used to having new people around me, get used to unfamiliar faces. The worst leave my comfort zone here. People in office say that they want to stay away from home, want to live alone. Little they know how difficult it is. So many times I wonder how would it have been if I was living with my parents. Ma would pack my lunch for me, ask how my day was when I come back home from work. How would it be to have a daily dinner conversation with my parents about the day's events. But thinking and wondering is all I can do. After leaving Chennai also I won't be staying with my parents though. Going home once in a while. Off late have been home sick and low pretty often. And a phone call now, from someone who was really close to me before but a stranger now. Haven't seen or spoken to her in a long time now. She said that she was generally missing me today hence called. hmmm and here I was wondering why was I hiccupping so much today..:D
Isi baat pe arz kiya hai,
Hichikiyo se ek baat ka ehsaas hota hai, Ki shayad koi hume yaad karta hai.
Milne na aaye to kya hua, hum par koi aaj bhi chand lamhe barbad karta hai.

Still talking to her. would log off now. wanna talk to her without distraction.